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[16 Mar 2006|02:40pm] I think I'm going to ditch tokemaryjane. and come back to this one, or maybe le_cigarette. can't quite decide. but I will soon. love always. ♥ smokemaryjane

[28 May 2004|04:29pm] J Juicy E Extreme S Sweet S Shiny I Innocent C Crazy A Appreciative Name / Username: Name Acronym Generator From Go-Quiz.com oh my god, that's so me. AH 2 ♥ smokemaryjane

[30 Mar 2004|11:47am] Kevins new place is cute, he has all he's shit moved in the living room and stuff, and it's cute way better than he's other place.. and theres no one to bitch, which means smokinnnng lotsss of pot! and no worries. cody likes katlin too, it's cute. i have to call him sometime, she's staying with me now which is alright, she got out of going to school on the first night she stayed here, she's pretty good. it's going to be a borning day, kevin gets off at 7, so me and katlin will probably just sit here all day, we might go for a walk to get a little work out.. and hopfuly sometime I get some shit done with my body..and hopfully my pill dosen't make me all tried ass. k well yeah. i'm gay cya 2 ♥ smokemaryjane

[29 Mar 2004|11:05pm] i'm so sick. ♥ smokemaryjane

[29 Mar 2004|11:59am] he should be calling soon. he got into a fist fight with he's brother now he's bros not moving in or anything so they might not even have enough money.. shitty deal. i might just go there. i'm so sick.. and sad. and I just feel bad and I don't know why. ♥ smokemaryjane

[22 Mar 2004|04:06pm] thank you fel, you are a life saver. 1 ♥ smokemaryjane

[10 Mar 2004|12:57pm] Oh my god I feel so bad. I hung up when he was saying I love you. hopfully he's off at three, or sooner. He makes me mad, I don't know, I don't care if he works in the morning and if my ONE fucking phone call fucked him up, I needed him last night , I always fucking need him and half the time i can't even call him. but whatever.. i think it's better that I call him in the middle of the night instead of cutting myself am I not right. whatever, boys are gay ♥ smokemaryjane

[09 Mar 2004|12:49pm] ( whosgay ) 10 ♥ smokemaryjane

[26 Feb 2004|11:49pm] I feel like i'm dead inside. I hope my dad lets me stay home tomorrow.. i'm so sad my eyes are burning from crying. I need to call kevin.. and lay in bed and try and sleep. and hopfully I don't cut myself.. not after kevin bagged me not to I mustent. FUCK 2 ♥ smokemaryjane

[20 Feb 2004|07:18pm] hopfully tonight is NUTS. 1 ♥ smokemaryjane

how true is this. [18 Feb 2004|12:12pm] Your Icon is..... by d3athofs3asons Your Name Your Age Your B-day Your Icon Is.... Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0! 1 ♥ smokemaryjane

[08 Feb 2004|10:17pm] I am: fat I want: to be happy I have: alot of fat I hate: myself I fear: </3. I play: videogames. I hear: heatbreak. I feel: sad. I care: for kevin. I smile: for kevin. I hope : for happiness. I wonder: about life. I love: kevin. I messed up: everything I think: to much I always: do drugs. I dance: here and there. I see : nothing. I sing: sometimes. I try: to be happy. I talk about: lots. I cry: lots I spilled: my heart to you. I wish: I could lose weight. I keep: hurting. I am not always: happy I can: make people feel better I can’t: be happy. I write: here and there. I win: never. I lose: lots. I smell: pusssyyy I confuse: myself I need: to fucking grow up. I should: grow up. I would: if I could time for popcorn. 2 hours 4 ♥ smokemaryjane

[30 Jan 2004|03:59pm] school wasn't so bad after all. It was nice seeing my friends and laughing with them again. I wasn't planning on going to kevins this early, but I miss him so much. so cya. ♥ smokemaryjane

[28 Jan 2004|02:44am] I am sad. I am fat. I am worthless. 16 ♥ smokemaryjane

i fucking love my boyfriend. [27 Jan 2004|12:54am] I'd like to start off by saying. I FUCKING LOVE MY BOYFRIEND. he's sweet, sexy , hot , cute , funny , ahh everything. I fucking adore him so much. I wish I was a better person for him though. I mean I treat him bad when all he is is good. I don't know. It's just sometimes he makes me mad, and does stuff that just makes me want to scream at him. but other than the normal relationship shit , I love him. I love laying with him, laughing with him. smoking drugs with him. I love you kevin <3. I'm not letting kevin know about this diet, everytime he knows i'm " dieting " he makes me eat, and won't take No for an answer. I'll tell him i'm eating. it's not lying, not in my eyes anyways. It's saving myself from more depression. I'm going to lose weight, i'm finally going to be happy with myself. arg I hope kevin gets off at lunch tomorrow, there fore I will get my ass ready and get all sexy looking, snort some pills, go hang with kevin for the day. Wensday going to the gym snorting more pills so I can giver. the new semseter starts Thursday, and I need to go. so my motavation when I get hungrey/munchies. SCHOOL, wanna be hot. no one wants to go to school fat and ugly. now do they. no. thanks for doing my journal. your a lifesaver. <3 ♥ smokemaryjane

I want my baby. [26 Jan 2004|01:48pm] =(.. I want to see kevin so fucking bad. and I probably won't see him for another 5 hours. I hate mondays the hours go so slow, and it just makes you want to die. gym at 4 15. thank goodness for fel. I'm doing good so far for eating today.. and I can't wait to giver at the gym. I hope I can get a library card too. I like reading. haha. fuck. 15 to 2.. time please go just a little faster. for me? ♥ smokemaryjane

[22 Jan 2004|01:01am] i want a razor. 9 ♥ smokemaryjane

[09 Jan 2004|04:46pm] Thug Bear Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You? brought to you by Quizilla ohh I got this nigga now. 4 ♥ smokemaryjane

[07 Jan 2004|01:00am] not sure if it's possible. but what could a girl do to fight the munchies. like really 2 ♥ smokemaryjane

[03 Jan 2004|01:50pm] ( horrible ) 15 ♥ smokemaryjane

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